April 9, 2012 – Day 1

As most of you know, I’ve had a rough year.  I lost Stan a year ago today and have had to learn to be alone again.  I had a painful summer –heartache and back ache, plus pulmonary problems.  October took care of the backache with a hip replacement.  It is so wonderful that our medical world can do that and make us pain free.  The heartache will recede in time.  It always does.  The lungs are still a challenge and in January I found I had cancer.  Never considered the word would apply to me.  Since then I have been getting chemo regularly.  It has made me very weak and extremely tired, so I’ve had a lot of time to sit in my chair and think about life and also, at 82, the absence of life here on earth.

I know what I believe.  I believe the promise that Jesus made:  If I believe that Jesus was the son of God and died on the cross to save me, I can KNOW without any doubt that I will have eternal life (I John 5:13).

If I believe this, shouldn’t I be doing something about it?

I truly want it to be meaningful; I want to be close to Jesus, to feel His real presence. I give Him off the top of my worldly goods.  That check is always written first.  My most precious commodity though, is time and my most precious time is the first thing in the a.m. when I have my coffee, alone time and peace.

I’m going to invite Him to be with me every morning.  To actually sit with me and listen.   Mostly though, I hope to listen; to hear that still small voice and get closer.

This is not an experiment.  It is an effort to be close and to get to know Him.  It is an effort to get my thoughts off of me and into a relationship with the one I hope to serve.

Don’t know what I can do from this chair, but He will show me something.  Maybe it is just to share with you.  If so, there will be more tomorrow.  If you don’t wish to share, you have only to hit the delete.  God bless you all.  Irma Jane Fritz-Zager